Circles

Is this what life is always like? The same pattern repeating over and over again? You think that as soon as you figure out one thing, all will be well, but it just so happens that something else to figure out comes in to take it's place.

What I'm talking about is hard to explain and even harder to avoid.

I'm talking about thoughts.

I'm now assuming that everyone has the same general fantasies about life. Something along the lines of "everything will be better in the future" or "I'll be happy when... (insert purchased object/life goal here)"

Sure, in the future, the thoughts you had before might be gone, but in their place are new thoughts about a different situation, and they wont go away until the situation changes again and then new ones will take their place.

Take right now, for example. Or rather, 4 months ago. Back then I was always worried about getting a job. 'Things will be better when I have a proper job', I thought. And then I got a job. And now there are new thoughts and worries to replace the old ones. Sure it's nice not to have to worry about finding a job, but that brain space has now been freed up to obsess over other things. Should I try to get this rental house? When should I go inspect it? Or should I resign myself to living in staff accommodation and paying double what i should be for rent? Will I regret not getting a place that boyfriend and family can stay at? Would it be too hard to live off mountain?

These are my thoughts now. And funnily enough, I'm still entertaining the same old fantasy: 'it'll all be better/easier when I live back in Melbourne again'.

I just don't think we learn. Or maybe we need to always be so optimistic about the future, no matter how many times it proves us wrong, because otherwise what is the point of change? I suppose life would be pretty dull if you knew the future isn't always going to be as easy as you make it out to be in your head.

But that's the fantasy, isn't it. And we all need a little fantasy every now and then.

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 5

Day Five: A picture of your favourite memory.

This is going to be a tough one...

Maybe not this exact point, but the whole time surrounding it is a pretty great memory :)

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 4

Will have to do two posts in one today since I didn't do one yesterday.


So here's a picture of my night last night:

Work

Hilarious New Zealand movie

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 3

Day Three: A picture of the cast from your favourite TV show.

Okay so this was way too hard so I had to split it up... There are four favourites: two are shows that have totally finished and two are continuing shows.

Continuing shows:

How I Met Your Mother

Gossip Girl

Finished shows:

Friends

Scrubs

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 2

Day Two: A picture of you and the person you have been closest to the longest.

The 30 Day Photo Challenge

Okay so I'm going to do the 30 day photo challenge here on my (very much unused) blog, instead of Facebook, because I'd like to do it for myself rather than for all the people that don't care out there.


DAY ONE: A picture of yourself with 10 facts.



1. I still have teddy bears on my bed.
2. I like jigsaw puzzles.
3. I wish I was more of a go-getter, rather than a member of the 'wait-n-see tribe'.
4. I love it when people get my quotes.
5. I'm addicted to caffeine.
6. The Duppy is my best (non-human) friend.
7. I think job hunting is hard and depressing when you don't know what to look for.
8. I still like teenage TV shows, movies & books because I'm not quite grown up yet.
9. Paris was my favourite place. No, Switzerland was. No, Rome was.... No....
10. I am in love.



Tune in tomorrow for Day Two!

namesake

it's not a silly little moment,
it's not the storm before the calm,
this is the deep and dying breath of
this love that we've been working on
can't seem to hold you like i want to
so i can feel you in my arms
nobody's gonna come and save you
we've pulled too many false alarms

we're going down and you can see it too
we're going down and you know that we're doomed
my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

i was the one you always dreamed of
you were the one i tried to draw
how dare you say it's nothing to me
baby you're the only light i ever saw
i make the most of all the sadness
you be a bitch because you can
oh you try to hit me just to hurt me but you leave me feeling dirty

we're going down and you can see it too
we're going down and you know that we're doomed
my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

go cry about it why don't you
go cry about it why don't you
oh go cry about it, go cry about it.
my dear, we're slowing dancing in a burning room

oh in a burning room
don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learnt by now
don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learnt somehow

my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.